Idle Days At Home

Special K?





Oversized 80s glasses?





Flowers?



and lastly - my masterpiece.
Yeah, I baked it from scratch. It tastes freaking good too.

:)

I still feel very unproductive at home.
I can't wait for summer to be over.

a street artist @ san antonio riverwalk


I've been reading the book of Philippians.

So much joy, so much hope, even during such dry times -
adds so much color onto the world.

Well I do realize that it was God the painter,
that gave me a whole new perspective in viewing the world I'm living in right now.

Conformity has always prevailed,
everyone wants to belong somewhere. Everyone wants to be loved. Everyone wants to be beautiful, young and glamorous. I've come to realize lately that I have been longing to be that 'everyone' so I wouldn't stick out as a weirdo. So disgustingly self-conscious and lacking confidence. If I said this, would people accept me. If I wore this, would they like me. If I had this kind of job, would I be in a okay position in this society. Media has a lot to do with it. But I don't want to blame that alone. It was me who became so weak, lost all the confidence and became another puppet...but when? I don't know. It kind of creeped up on me.

I've always been a people-pleaser, so I'm still confused about what my real self is.
It's been just so much easier to be what I expect people for me to be.
So when I hear a "JUST BE YOURSELF" talk, I get lost instantly trying to come up with what I actually am.

But I guess it's simple. Simpler than I thought.

God has given me a new perspective. He added color to my otherwise boring life.
Of course I have no idea who I am, other than the fact that I'm a wonderful creation of God,
because right now I'm just a sketch of whatever I'm supposed to become.
But I'm very confident in the belief that God already has the perfect picture in mind -
I guess He's just finishing up the sketch and adding color and stuff and even though it might take awhile....I am still His. Nobody can mess with His stuff.

I'm so thankful for everything He has blessed me with. He's so awesome.
He never gives up on me...and reminds me everyday about His love. It's quite overwhelming.



"What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things." - Philippians 3:8

I love Your presence - jessie lane

I have this thing for the sky(clouds). Especially the Dallas one. It just looks so much prettier back home.



Yay sunsets!



My dad and I went out for coffee & some collective studying/reading time.
That's what happens if you have a scholarly daddy. I read 30 pages of the book about the absolute destruction of mankind while he graded Hebrew papers for his students.



When we came home, he started trimming the bush out of nowhere...



then mother came out to help...
my parents are so random...haha i love it






O btw, my sister came home today after spending a month in Colorado!
She's still super talkative as ever. :)

It was nice being back @ Youngnak today. Yay familiar faces. I can be myself and not really worry much about impressing anyone. :D

Texas. Football. McCoy.

July14th, I made my second trip to the Texas stadium for the QB McCoy photo shoot.
The stadium's huge. It took me forever to walk to the other side. Soft grass, expensive I hear.

This is Ty. He helped me and Tamir out for the lighting stuff!



It took us two hours to set up everything. All the lights were motion-sensored so we couldn't turn them off. We ended up having to block all the lights physically by using shower curtains. I ran around a lot, but it was interesting. I'm so glad Tamir was there.

Then pop, Colt finally poked his head in :) hello hello sir

He had already done like 1000000 photoshoots earlier that day so he seemed pretty tired.
Tired of smiling, posing, small talks, flashes,
well that's what you get for...being famous. Haha.

I honestly thought he'd be stuck-up and arrogant (my general assumptions about football players - I don't know where it came from), but Colt was nice. He was real chill. Pretty eyes.


He laughed at me in the middle because I was too short and I had to get up on a stool to be eye-to-eye with him.
When I told him to give me an angry face, he gave me a super lame one and said, "I'm a happy person. Sorry." LOL.

But anyways, he was nice enough to take a picture with me at the end!
I'm sure he gets that from girls a lot...
I can't wait til football season starts yayyyy

O, btw,

happy birthday mama:)

"My president is black, my Lambo's blue
And I'll be goddamned if my rims ain't too"

hahahahaha i don't know why but this rappppp is stuck in my head. -_-

"Obama forreallll" LOL.

annie ray photoshoot!
she's a cool photographer from UNT,
checked out her website out of curiosity and she does some cool photobooth stuff.
Spider House was awesome. She was a good model. yay.
I love this time of the day.



BTW. IT'S REALLY REALLY HOT THESE DAYS. UGH.

best i ever had - drake
stuck in my head right now :)